I was participating in my third iteration of The Lark Play Development Center’s “Word Exchange,” when I came across Noé Morales Muñoz’s Hitler in my Heart. The reading, with its fresh translation by Maria Alexandria Beech, stayed with me the rest of the day. And that week. And that year. I asked for a copy of both the original Spanish and its translation, and I pitched them to every theater that would listen, every director looking for a project, and any actors simply wanting to work on a new piece. Nothing happened. Folks would read it and optimistically dismiss it as “interesting,” “smart,” or “original.” Some went so far as to call it “not exactly theater, but a staged storytelling.”
What else is theater?
This was 12 years ago.
I realize now that theatermakers, like everyone else, have their boundaries. When and how we risk requires calculation. There are stories we are ready to hear and some that we are not, and the play we call Heart of Shrapnel arrives at Elon because folks were willing to risk many uncomfortable conversations about what this work means to its community and its developing artists, the first of which was its title.
The musician Anohni, who used to identify as Antony Hegarty, recorded the song Hitler in my Heart in 1998 as Antony and the Johnsons. The song, in which a gay, male romance is first denied by one of its participants, then erased through a hate crime, ignites rage within the speaker that can only be compared to the embodiment of evil. Wanting to forgive, but finding “Hitler in [his] heart” — he finds that the full expression of that particular pain is the only thing that can redeem him:
Don’t punish me/ For wanting your love inside of me Don’t punish me/ For wanting your love inside of me And I find Hitler in my heart/ From the corpses flowers grow And I find Hitler in my heart/ From the corpses flowers grow
The flowers are the song we are hearing, the art itself, the one Antony/Anohni records but also performs time and again, perhaps as a restorative ritual. The calm expressed here at the end juxtaposes the haunting, brutal first half with Anohni’s operatic vocals soaring over a nimble, blistering piano that repeats frantically as it gives way to emotive strings. The song tattoos itself to the listener, and Noé, in conversation with it, created something that similarly tattooed itself to me.
The work of translating never finishes. The printed text is only an approximation. Our artistic team asked (and still asks) itself hundreds of questions about society, sports, violence, interpreting notions of so-called class, privilige, race, sex, religion, and immigration in order to get at something that approaches Noé and Maria Alexandria’s voices about their worlds. Ultimately, we agreed; we will not be able to interpret anything unless our play exists in the liminal spaces between the United States, Mexico, and beyond — in a city that is neither Monterrrey nor Seattle, but a globalized city, in the globalized world.
Make no mistake, the main concerns of this play come from a Mexican perspective about American culture. Our particular brand of commerce, fueled by iconography, cinematography and the use of idolatry through celebrity are squarely in focus here, and if fútbol is the second act’s subject, it is only because it is the sport that the world knows, the one that our playwright could speak in. Trade tethers some 7.6 billion people across the globe, and marketing it requires a particular kind of myth-making that feels omnipresent, working its way into our conversations, thoughts, doubts, aspirations, evaluations, and determinations. True to Noé’s vision, we want to free the audience of those burdens by magnifying and exploding those myths.
We began crafting this production, this particular tattoo, with you in mind, with the idea that the people experiencing it should receive something that cannot be obtained anywhere else because nowhere else would have it, and that must point to something. This means that the new ‘we’ (the production team with the audience, together) is both privileged and ostracized, peddlers as well as believers, institutional peons as well as blue-collar survivors. We are, in other words, the characters in this play. And isn’t that what theater, or “staged storytelling,” is all about?
Thank you for reading this. Thank you for being here. Thank you, Elon and Central NC, for participating with your entire imagination, in something beyond the transaction, wrestling to find a language we can all speak in.
Dr. Connie Book, Dr. Aswani Volety, Dr. Gabie Smith, Chair Lauren Kearns, Kim Shively, Fred Rubeck, Alfredo de Quesada, Andrea Thome, Hathaway Pendergrass, Kirby Wahl, Bret Sherman, Kenny Harvey, and Dominika Beza Handzlik
Taylor Ann Mitchell
X or Y
John Lee Rudolph
X or Y
Alyssa Wise, Conrad Hall, Delaney Lynch, Manu Cornick Fernandez, Niklas Salah, Sarah Cadol, Sean Mikesh
Assistant Stage Manager
Costume Shop Manager
Heidi Jo Scheimer
Sound Board Op
Keri Anderson, Ella Huestis, Laura McGuire
John Lee Rudolph
(Stage Manager)Peyton Otis is so grateful to be Stage Managing her second mainstage production at Elon University! A Junior Theatrical Design and Technology Major with a concentration in Stage Management, she wishes to thank the incredible cast, crew, and design team, as well as everyone in Elon Performing Arts for making this show possible. Past Elon credits include We Will Rock You (Assistant Stage Manager), Pheromone (Assistant Stage Manager), and Medea (Stage Manager).
Alec Wilson is a Sophomore Acting and Computer Science Double Major at Elon University from Gainesville, Georgia. He has previously been the understudy for Kyle in Pheromone and understudy for Macbeth in Macbeth. He is making his mainstage debut as X/Y in Heart of Shrapnel. He would like to thank all of his teachers, friends, and family who have all helped him get to where he is now.
Sydney Bell is a senior Theatrical Design and Technology and Arts Administration major from Atlanta, Georgia. Sydney is honored to work on this amazing show with so many talented artists and individuals. Sydney’s notable Elon credits include Beast Mode Champion (Stage Manager), We Will Rock You (Asst. Stage Manager), Clown Bar (Asst. Stage Manager), and 1940's Radio Hour (Asst. Stage Manager). Sydney has enjoyed working with this wonderful team, and she is excited to share this production with everyone! Sydney would like to thank her parents and friends for their love and support.
JP has served as the Performing Arts Technical Director since Fall 2017. Prior to Elon, he worked as a technical designer, lead craftsperson, and project manager. Outside of Elon, he continues work as a freelance technical designer on productions such as the Frozen Australian Tour, The Beauty and the Beast in Shanghai, and The Phantom of the Opera World Tour. In his free time, JP builds custom furniture and runs an ever-increasing number of virtual Dungeons & Dragons campaigns. He couldn’t do any of this without the constant support of his amazing partner, Amanda.
Taylor is thrilled to be performing in her first play here at Elon! She is a junior this year and cannot wait to see what her third year at Elon holds in store. She would like to thank her friends and family for their endless support. She would also like to thank her incredible professors and mentors for the support and knowledge they have given her. She hopes you enjoy the show!
Alex is a Senior TDT major with a concentration in lighting and stage management. This year she is the lighting designer on Heart of Shrapnel, Sense and Sensibilities, and Cherry Orchard. Additionally, she is one of several lighting designers on the Fall Dance Concert and an assistant lighting designer on 42nd Street.
Alyssa Wise is a freshman at Elon University. She has been involved in theatre since she was nine years old and has performed in school productions and several community theatre groups including the Garner Towne Players and the Justice Theater Project. Her most memorable role was "Emmie Understudy" in the Justice Theatre Project's production of Caroline, or Change. She was a student in the Pre-Professional Training Program at the North Carolina Theatre Conservatory and has taken virtual classes with the Stella Adler Academy in New York. Alyssa is very excited to be a part of her first production at Elon!
Callie is so excited to perform in this show as she embarks on her senior year at Elon University. Previously, she played The Attendant in Medea and Popo in Clown Bar. Outside of Elon, Callie has performed in The Wizard of Oz with TheatreLeague and Nine with Spinning Tree Theatre. She also interned with MICHA this past summer during their workshop series and she has served as literary intern for Unicorn Theatre. Finally, Callie is proud to have participated in film projects both in and out of school (Bresee, Commuters, etc.). She is excited for what the future holds! @callie_fabac
John Lee Rudolph
John Lee Rudolph is a senior BFA Acting Major from Charlotte, NC and he is thrilled to be a part of the team for Heart of Shrapnel. His previous credits at Elon include Medea (Messenger), Hamlet (Guildenstern U/S), and Arcadia (Jellaby U/S). He is also a proud member of the Performing Arts Departments Improv Team, Instant Laughter! He hopes you enjoy the show!
Payton Robinson (Woman C) is a Junior BFA Acting Major from Fairhope, Alabama. Payton has been involved in other Elon productions including The Wolves, Medea, and Macbeth as an Understudy, but is excited to now be making her Mainstage debut. Payton would like to thank Andres Munar and the entire cast and crew for all the laughs, love, and lessons learned during this incredibly fulfilling experience as well as her family for their love and support. She hopes everyone enjoys the show!
Caitlin Duncan is a senior at Elon University ('22) pursuing a Bachelor of Arts Degree in Theatrical Design & Technology and Arts Administration with minors in Early Childhood and Business Administration. Select Elon University credits to include Fugitive Songs (Costume Designer), Beast Mode Champion (Stitcher & Crafts), We Will Rock You (Wardrobe Supervisor), Cabaret (Costume Designer), and Sweeney Todd (Stitcher). Her time at Elon thus far has consisted of many costume construction pieces, wardrobe supervision, and costume design projects. Upon graduation, Caitlin plans to pursue a career in costume design.To see more of her work, please visit caitlinbduncan.weebly.com
Andres is a dramatic artist born in Colombia and raised in Miami, Fl. He is a recipient of a TCG/Fox Foundation Fellowship at Cornerstone Theater Company and a Bowden Award from New Dramatists for his contributions to new plays developed by Sung Rno, Michael John Garces, Chiori Miyagawa and many others. At the Lark Play Development Center, he workshopped plays by Rajiv Joseph, Lynn Nottage, and Kristoffer Diaz, and was a company member for The Word Exchange, a Mexico-U.S. translation program. He is currently directing the development of Professor Samuel Ray Gates’ solo piece, When the Swelling Goes Down, at UNC-Chapel Hill.
Previous directing includes Lada’s Swan at Columbia University, The Dudleys! At LMCC/Swing Space, Co-Ops and Kryptonite at Manhattan Theater Source, and hundreds of student plays with Manhattan Theater Club’s educational outreach, Write on the Edge.
Theater performance: Loading Dock Theater, The Foundry, Intar, Lincoln Center (Broadway) Lincoln Center (Mitzi Newhouse), Working Theater, NY Theater Workshop, Cherry Lane, Rattlestick, Clubbed Thumb...
Regional: Old Globe, Woolly Mammoth. On film, he appeared in the Paola Mendoza and Gloria LaMorte film, Entre Nos, at Tribeca Film Festival and Steven Soderbergh's Che at the Cannes FF and NYFF.
Andres holds an MFA in Interdisciplinary Arts from Goddard College, where he wrote his first full-length play, Monks, and his first episodic pilot, Pyramids. He thanks his partner, Aubree, for holding it down while dad plays director.
Eduardo Diego-Bautista is a Junior B.F.A Acting major and Communications minor that hails from Charlotte NC, and is excited to make his mainstage debut. He has previously been involved in Elon productions as an understudy for Bobo in Clown Bar and Reynaldo/Fortinbras in Hamlet. He'd like to thank all the wonderful production crew, his mother and his family back home in Queen City, his professors who have always pushed him, and Andres Munar for providing this impactful experience. He hopes you enjoy and appreciate the work his fellow castmates have put into this production!
Briston Whitt is a lateral into the BFA Acting Class of '23 from Winston Salem, NC. Performing since the age of nine, some of Briston's most notable appearances were with the NC Black Repertory Company and the National Black Theatre Festival. In Elon's 2021 Spring play of Macbeth Briston played Soldier 2, Macduff U/S and Witch 2 U/S. She is so excited to take the stage this fall as “A” in Heart of Shrapnel. Briston would like to thank Andres Munar for helping her expand as an artist and an individual, and her amazing castmates for this memorable experience.
Elizabeth is a senior graduating with a degree in Theatrical Design and Technology Major as well as Arts Administration. She is thrilled to design her first Elon show and cannot wait for audiences to see this story come to life. She would like to thank the cast, crew, and production team for making this first show experience so influential. She is extremely grateful to be a part of this show and finally enjoy live theatre again.